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completely opposite. An area where I could be the one in control and earn trust instead
of giving it. She gave a short laugh.  Although I guess that really works both ways.
The trust, I mean.
He squeezed her hand gently.  Yes, it does.
 Anyway. She sipped at her coffee.  When I called the 1-800 number and set up
the appointment at Unfettered I really had no idea what to expect. Would I like the role
reversal? Would the sub I met be weak? Strong? Would I even like the person? She
looked at him earnestly.  That s very important to me, Ethan. The liking, I mean.
 I understand.
 And it has to be someone who respects the fact that I seldom take the lifestyle
outside the house. Certainly not in my work. I deal with high-powered businessmen
who are demanding in what they want. I can t put myself in a compromising position.
My reputation is the only thing I have to sell.
It really had started out as a game to her, to see if she had been a Mistress in
disguise all these years. The possibility of the sexual excesses available in a place like
Unfettered had tempted her, beckoned her like an addiction she couldn t walk away
from. The intense sexual satisfaction she d found immediately convinced her that her
instincts were right. And a prolonged sexual relationship with a sub would be
satisfying without complicating her life. She could walk away any time.
The electricity that sparked between her and Ethan with nuclear force was more
than she d bargained for when she set up that first appointment at Unfettered. The very
thing she d avoided all her life was suddenly grabbing her and refusing to let go, and
she had no idea how to handle it. So she d run away from it, avoiding the club.
Avoiding everything.
She fiddled with her silverware, something to do with her hands.  What I didn t
expect was to& connect with someone the way we did. To have these& feelings for you
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that I m not sure what to do with. But I know I want more than a few hours at
Unfettered. And if that s not what you want, you have to tell me now.
They were interrupted again while the waitress took their order. Neither of them
had studied the menu so they both ordered the brunch special. When the waitress had
taken the menus and left, Ethan leaned across the table. He d never released his hold on
her hand. She waited in an agony of suspense while he studied her face, wondering if
he was going to say,  Thanks but no thanks , get up and walk out. Or something else.
 I m in a situation a lot like yours, he began.  And because I do trust you and
because I agree there s a connection between us that scares me as much as I think it does
you I ll tell you about myself. Idly he stirred his coffee.  First of all I m an attorney.
International law.
Her eyebrows rose nearly to her hairline.  Attorney?
Not a career she d have expected from him. Although she could certainly see him in
the role now that he d brought it out into the open.
He gave a rueful smile.  Doesn t quite go with the sub image, right? You can see
why I have to be so careful. This is not something my partners or clients would
understand. So I have as much at risk as you do. I need someone who also understands
that I have to maintain control in every other area of my life, so giving it up to the right
person is more satisfying to me than anything else.
He leaned back in his chair.  It s why I ve never allowed myself the privilege of a
long-term relationship. I ve never met anyone I could trust to keep our personal life
separate from everything else. To control the overt need to dominate in the presence of
others not in the life. At least not in ways that would be very obvious and prompt
unwanted questions.
Dani nodded.  Me too. I ve been lucky with my Masters. They ve all respected my
boundaries. She lifted her coffee cup to her lips, not sure what to say next.
 Dani.
When she looked up his eyes were burning into hers with an intense gaze.
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Ethan hoped he hadn t made a mistake here. He d never felt the powerful tug with
another human being the way he had from the moment he met Dani Maguire. It was
the emotion, something he d kept carefully locked away and protected. But she looked
at him and his heart had cracked wide open. Son of a bitch.
After that first night she d invaded his waking moments and his dreams, distracting
him when he needed to concentrate, pulling at something inside him that he d kept
carefully locked away. Exposing himself to her like this was a risk, but the alternative
was not to see her again and he couldn t accept that.
 So let s acknowledge there s something here that neither of us looked for or
expected. He held himself still as he waited for her answer, scarcely able to breathe.
She d said the words first. He hoped she meant them.
When she smiled at him every muscle in his body seemed to relax.
 I was afraid you d get up and walk out.
He laughed.  Not even an option. We have something special here and I want to
pursue it. With the condition that if it doesn t work we each go our own way and
respect the other s need for confidentiality.
 All right. I d like that too.
Thank god. Because I can t wait for you to tie me up and use my body any way it pleases
you. I will walk naked in the house, fuck you ten times a day, eat your pussy every morning if
you desire that. And I will take care of you, if you let me. And you may punish me in a suitable
way any time I disappoint you.
 But, Ethan?
He tensed. Was she changing her mind? Setting restrictions that would doom this
before it even got started?
 Yes, Mistress?
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 I sense a great strength in you, and a need to protect your Mistress. I don t want
you to lose that.
He thought his smile would crack his cheeks.  I can assure you that won t happen.
Mischief danced in her eyes.  Then I suggest we finish our brunch. I have some
excellent ideas on how to spend the rest of the weekend.
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At first they tried an overnight. Then a weekend. There had been a lot of testing of
each other, checking boundaries, seeing how far they could push each other. How much
more they could trust each other. Trying each other out, in private and in public. And
because Ethan had more to lose than Dani, he was the one to hold back the most. Make
her prove herself to him as his Mistress.
The first time they went out in public to a restaurant a lot of his friends
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