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left and right that I loved her? That she was good enough for me? And for what? For her to believe the
contrary as soon as something bad happens?
 I get that you blame yourself for it, Kevin. I know you, you hate being the one instigating all this 
 I didn t instigate anything!
 Yes, you did. You were the one who came up with the List. You were the one who ordered her to go
to a sex party, knowing perfectly well what would happen there considering you d been to Charlie s
before!
 Fuck you. Kevin glared at him but he didn t leave.
Nick considered his stern expression and sighed.  Come on, man, you knew how she was before you
got married, didn t you? And yet, you still loved her.
 And what did that get me?
 Stop being so fucking dramatic. Nick finally snapped, his blue eyes stormy. He stood up and started
pacing the room.  I don t know why you re so mad about this. So what if she s not sure of herself in
public? You know she lets go once she knows people well. And come on, it s not like she s like this all
the time. She s a fucking sex goddess!
 A what?
 Stop interrupting me! You knew she wasn t like any of the usual girls you dated, you knew she
wouldn t fit in your group of friends but you married her anyway!
 Because I loved her!
 My point exactly!
Kevin stared back at him, his fingers clenched so tightly around his glass it shattered, broken pieces
drifting down his legs to pool on the floor.
 Just think about the rest of your life, Kevin. I know sex is important to you and all but she s more than
that. She s your wife, the mother of your future children. She takes care of you when you re sick. She
even got a nurse outfit just to please you!
 I know. Kevin sighed, his eyes downcast. He was trying to think where the broom was but for the life
of him, he couldn t remember when she usually put it.
 It s not like she s like this all the time. I get that she s insecure around our group, I mean they re not
the easiest people on the planet. All the guys tend to date bunnies or whoever had the biggest tits or
shortest skirt in the club last night. Mia s different. She only lets go in private and really, man, you
should be pleased.
 Nick, you can stop now. Kevin s voice was tense.
 What? Oh, sure. I just wanted to help.
 It s okay, you ve done your bit. That was a very nice speech and I know how much you love her but
she s still my wife.
 I never said the contrary.
 I know. Kevin rubbed the back of his neck tiredly.  I just want her to be as carefree as she used to
be.
 She is! Haven t you listened to a word I said? What do you want? For her to actually go through with
that fucking threesome with Bella so you can congratulate yourself your wife s still hot?
 Nick, that s enough. Mia appeared in the doorway, her eyes dark.
 Mia, I 
She waved her hand in the air.  I know, you were taking my defense and I thank you. Kevin, can we
talk?
 About what? He never moved from his spot, glass crunching under his feet as he crossed his ankles
together.
 I&  She licked her lips.  I wanted to apologize for my behavior over the past few days. I screwed up.
 No, you didn t. It was just 
 Nick! Kevin hissed through clenched teeth.  She s talking to me.
 Oh, right. Sorry, the younger man said. He leaned back and took another sip of his drink, being
careful not to look at them.
Mia took a deep breath before adding,  I had this nightmare. It was you and Bella and then Nick
popped in. It was& excruciating and I think& it felt like it was real. Like it had really happened.
 You really think I would like her over you?
 My mind thought so, yes.
 You re my wife, Mia.
 I am but you re the one who decided we should do this List thing because you thought I wasn t good
enough.
 No, no, no. I never said such a thing!
 You implied it, she replied, her gaze locking with his.  That s what you just told Nick, no? That you
wanted me to be like I used to?
 It s not the same thing!
 I don t see the difference. If you want me to change my behavior, it s because you obviously don t
think I m good enough. That I don t do enough now, that I don t please you enough 
He was on her in a second.
Chapter Twenty-Nine: Hugs and Kisses
 Don t ever say that again, Kevin said just before he draped an arm around her back and pulled her
tight against him.  Ever, do you hear me?
 I hear you. She looked up at his troubled face, clearly taken aback.
 I love you. I love that you re my wife. But I just wanted you to be happy, isn t that too much to ask?
 I am happy. I was happy!
 So you don t miss the way you were when we were first dating?
 No, yes. I don t know. She bit her lower lip and thought it over.  It was just an act, Kev. I thought you
preferred women like that so I put up this front 
 Maybe but baby, I felt your body then. You weren t faking.
 I never fake. She cocked an eyebrow at him.
 I know. He grinned as he lowered his head and kissed her lips softly.  Do you get what I m saying
though? It s not that I don t think you re good enough or that you re not pleasing me. Hell, you re
always pleasing me! He frowned then reluctantly added,  Except these past few days, that was, uh,
different but baby, I just wanted you to see yourself like I see you. Like Nick sees you.
Nick s head jerked up at the sound of his name.  Uh, Kev s right. We want you. Charlie wanted you.
Even Bella wanted to have sex with you!
Kevin nearly groaned at their friend s speech. Couldn t he learn to shut up for once? Did he really have
to talk about them? Like she needed the reminder of those two nights?  Baby, don t listen to him,
just 
 No, he s right. They did want me, unbelievable as that is. She pulled away from him and thought
about it. Charlie had wanted her; she d thought so at the time. Even if he now said it was because he
wanted to see what she was all about, confirm what Kevin saw in her, he had been hard. That, she [ Pobierz całość w formacie PDF ]